Friday, September 30, 2011

And then, the star died.



And then, the star died. 

It had been a long time coming and it knew it, but when the end came, it was still a shock. All those hundreds of millennia gone, in a moment of blinding glory. Its neighbors were obliterated as were the bright creatures upon them. The star was heartbroken, for they had shown such promise. It lamented its helplessness to stop their erasure. 

And then the star thought. IT thought; how could it do that if it was dead? (Let alone that it is a star.) Across eons of our time (but mere moments to the star) it was still existing, but also changing.

When a star dies it has a unique opportunity before it. It ceases to be what it was; it is no longer a warm, life giving thing. But, it doesn’t cease being. The potential paths before it are myriad and astonishing. 

Its remainder of gases and metals could be far flung and reused in another star or even, in the making of biological life.  Its core could be left, after much compression, as a super dense neutron star - a star that revolves rapidly and screams furiously at the night. Or even it could become the most mysterious of interstellar objects, a black hole - a seeming tear in space and time that forever draws anything caught in its gravity well towards its gaping maw.

So how had our star continued its cognizance? How was it reborn? 

The former light giver had become a nebula: a birthing ground for stars. Formed from its remnants, this colorful stellar womb held within its wispy tendrils the seeds for new astral lights. The star had become a parent for a new generation of cosmic luminaries. 

Our star was happy again, for each of these new stars held the potential for their own neighbors. For intelligent creatures with promise. And eventually, something else entirely.


Friday, September 16, 2011

What I am to be.

What I am to be
Is not yet known to me
Be it architect, psychologist
Or something as yet unknown
Only one knows the answer
I must mearly be silent
And listen
To hear His voice
In the wind
He knows my path
He knows the plan
I trust my Heavenly Father
To prosper me
Wherever I end up
Whatever I end up

Is it possible

Is it possible to love a place you've never been?
To have a longing for a people and a culture not your own?
There is a burden in my heart for them.A need to be with them.
From where do these feelings come from?Why do they remain so strong with in me?
In a mind oft plagued by past memories, and driven by dreams for the future.
There is a yearning, a seed planted long ago that is now growing.
Where will it lead?
What will come of it?
We shall see.
I have faith.

Where were you on September 11th 2001?


    I was in junior high and had just walked into history class. The TV was on, and everyone was staring at it. The first plane had hit and the smoke was already pouring out across New York. I remember thinking "This can't be real, this can't be happening. Please, wake up." Then the second plane hit the other tower. My classmates and I were numb with shock, horror and fear. We looked at each other as if confirming that we were really there and seeing what the others saw.
    We spent the rest of the school day and week watching the news. In all of the classrooms the TV was on. The teachers felt it was important enough to postpone lessons for. I hear I was lucky (or not, depending on how you see it) to even see it at all. In many schools they shut off all TVs and did not allow students to watch what was going on.
    After getting home from school, I remained glued to the television. I learned that other attacks had occurred or had been planned. The Pentagon was hit and the White House was a target. I later found out about those brave men and women on flight 93, and how they had fought the hijackers.
This is a day I will never forget as long as I live. It is burned forever into my memory.

I've Been Too Long From The African Sun


I’ve been too long from the African sun.
My soul needs its warm embrace
(as well as my paled hide).
I wish to bathe in its dusty orange hues, basking myself in the comforting heat.
I desire to see the days, from the shade of the acacia tree,
brilliantly lit by a sun that knows how to nourish a wandering heart.
I want to end each of my days with the glory that is an African sunset.
All reds, pinks, purples and blues.
Each blending together, making the perfect color pallet to sip tea by.
I’ve been too long from the African sun.